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Intuition Or Into Wishing?

Haven’t really had a cause to blog as of recent. My last 1 to 2 weeks have been centered around things that wouldn’t benefit me to talk about them on here, at least not yet. Probably going to be like that for a while but it’s not a sign of depression, distress, or any other kind of problem. A good percentage of it is actually positive. Just some precautionary measures to make sure my year life and multiple careers are headed in the right direction and all potential obstacles are out of the way.

Like whenever things are about to move real fast, I like to slow down and envision how I want stuff to go and what I will do if when they don’t go quite as planned. Some call it intuition, Jay-Z calls it “sort of a premonition”, Magic Johnson described it as “seeing the game in slow motion”, while Michael Jordan concluded that “I saw what would happen before my opponents”. Whether it’s sports, music, business, or what have you;the ability to think ahead but still live in the moment is what makes the greats GREAT.

Sidebar:Took down the top pic because I realized that it was outdated. I don’t really do fitted caps too much anymore, my hair is grown out, my skin isn’t even the same (Winter paleness victim).

Sidebar 2:Might find myself in NY, Philly and Atlanta over the next two to three weeks. I didn’t mention that for any particular reason. Just felt it was noteworthy.

Anyway the real purpose of this entry is to post a few blogs and websites that I frequent and benefit from in one way or another. All these people offer their own unique contributions to society through pictures, music, and written words. There’s a bunch more that I check but these in particular have content that resonates well with me. Might do the same for you too.

Simone Carlene-She Writes

Sean Famous

The Young And Disenchanted

Go Getter

Corporate Takeover

Pardon My Fresh

Other than that enjoy the “Current Mood Music” off to the right which is now called “Music Of The Moment”. When you call it Current Mood Music and the artist says “I’m about to go do a drive by”, people start thinking every single word represents your thoughts. A lot of times I pick the music based on the emotion of the track, not so much the lyrics. If I want to get lyrics across I’ll post some of my stuff.

Extemporaneous Speech

Sidenote:Someone tried to put me on to extemporaneous speeches the other day. She felt real special that she was telling me something new. I let her have her moment but honestly, it was the first thing they taught in Mrs.What’s Her Name’s Communication 101 class.

My weekend was a pretty decent one all things considered.
-I regained my touch in pool, I had fallen off recently and was beginning to lose just a bit too much. Once I get in that zone though…GOODNIGHT, thanks for coming, better luck next time.
-I also went DVD shopping and bought nothing but comedies. I have way too many serious movies in my catalog. Everything is some thought provoking drama or mafia movie. It felt good just to laugh and chill. “Hitch”, “Along Came Polly” and “Meet The Fockers” were some of the titles.
-Swore to myself that I’m done with my bakery addiction. It makes no sense to go 21 years without ever drinking or smoking but you can’t say no to a chocolate chip cookie or a blueberry muffin. If not for pastries I would probably be in Spartan-like shape right now. I’m taking it one day at a time though. Hopefully I don’t relapse.
-I got in one of those zones this weekend where I’m ready to make some more changes in my life. I’m never ever satisfied. Happiness is fleeting. You don’t just catch it and hold on to it forever. It’s something you have to work on constantly. Don’t know what’s going to come of the new changes but I just know a couple of adjustments must be made. I’ve been stressed out more days in 2009 than all of 2008 combined.
-I think the cause of that stress is because last year I just worked freely without pressure. This year I’ve put tons and tons of pressure on myself to accomplish certain things in a timely manner. Unfortunately when you’re surrounded by people who don’t share the same “fierce urgency of now” mentality, you have to wait…and wait…and wait some more. In school I was always the person that would do the whole groups work as opposed to risk having some slacker mess it up. Some teachers commended this “go getter” attribute while others encouraged me to “be more of a team player”. I’m still confused till this day.
Sidenote:Michael Jordan once said “there’s no I in team but there is an I in win”
-There’s a good chance I’ll be waving goodbye to DC some time this summer or maybe even sooner.
#1 Reason:I’ve operated from the same 10 mile radius for 12 years straight. If not for the exposure from going to George Mason for those 2 years, I would be an around the way n*gga…we all know how that movie ends.
#2 Reason:Financial.
#3 Reason:Everyone I look up to historically always made their biggest leap career wise after changing settings. Even if it’s just for a year or two.
#4 Reason:Mrs.Phella is somewhere on the road. I’ve always known the final person I would settle with would be from out of town. Just not sure where exactly, but I’ve had the premonition already.
#5 Reason:I’ll be able to play songs like “I’ll Be Gone Till November” and cry.
-I learned something really really insightful and it just escaped my mind as I typed this. See why I like blogging from the phone? It was a gem too that I really wanted to share, oh well..maybe I’ll remember another time.
-In other news, The Famous Firm has a big February in store. January started off very strong and the second month of the year should will be a bigger one. Expect a multitude of surprises.
-If you look to the right of this blog and scroll down a bit, you’ll see I have a CBox now. Basically you can type random short messages and stuff there. I’ll be using that to basically microblog since everyone doesn’t have a twitter.
-Steve Nash got dunked on so bad. My GOD!!!!!! Stop taking charges Steve and move out the way.

The Age Old Debate..Is College A Hustle?

“Yo I peaced out right after my third semester/then every single day I must have heard a lecture/ain’t no way you gon make it if you don’t go to school/it’s been 6 whole months and we aint seen you on the tube”-Phella “No No No

Look I have absolutely nothing against people in school. I have nothing against education, as a matter of fact I believe in education more than probably anything else in the world. That’s why I talk/listen so much. I want to let people know what I think and get their thoughts in return. My problem is this notion that college is the “only way” or the “best way”. I think situations should be assessed on an individual basis.

Coming from an African family, this debate over college or no college is a very frequent one. I would really like to know where everyone in the blogosphere stands on this and why. Feel free to email or comment anonymous if you want.

Video was jacked from RealTalkNY by the way.

On a related note, with The Firm we get a ton of inquiries from people wanting to work with us or intern. Most people just submit pages and pages of their resume and what degrees they’ve attained. Unfortunately that doesn’t necessarily speak to what kind of person you are and what kind of character you have. In addition to your scholastic accomplishments please include some general insight about your personality, what motivates you etc…

2 Quotes For The Price Of 1


“Because it is only when you hitch your wagon to something larger than yourself that you will realize your true potential.”-Barack Obama

He says this a lot. Probably because it’s very true. Some people believe in being the big fish in a little pond but you don’t learn much that way. Surrounding yourself with people greater than you are is the best way to test who you are as a person.

“In this world full of diseases/I learned not to bite my tongue or have seizures.”-Joe Budden

Clever wordplay as well as real talk. The biggest mistake kids make in school is when the teacher says “any questions”, there’s always two or three people who have questions to ask but they won’t out of fear for what their classmates might think or how the teacher might react. Those kids usually fail the test.

Even in adulthood people stay in jobs and relationships they don’t like, all because of that fear to speak up. People also miss out on jobs and potential relationships for the very same reason.

Basically say what you have to say everyday because you aren’t guaranteed tomorrow, nor is the person you might want to say it to. Even if it’s something they may not like. Just say it. The only time I’ve ever felt true regret is when I didn’t say something I wanted or needed to say.

That’s why bloggers/musicians/journalists/psychologists got it so good. When done correctly, all of those jobs allow you to speak your mind without censorship. I HAVE ALL FOUR JOBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank You And You’re Welcome Pt.3

Sorry for no Music Mondays today. Was kind of busy plus this cold is still giving me the business. Speaking of music. This site is very similar to my music career. The masses ain’t caught on yet but those that know, know. I’ll promote the hell out of other people’s stuff but seldom mine..it’s because “I ain’t got nothing but time”. If you know the story of how I got here (as in my conception), you would know why. I touched on it briefly on this old freestyle..shout out to J.Rob

I just digressed severely. What I meant to say was THANKS to all that view this site. My daily unique views have jumped almost 300% this year. That was my whole goal coming in. To reach as many people as possible…and maybe one day get deep comments like this lady gets on her blog.

Weekend in 2008:

Weekend in 2009:

Props to the lurkers as well the people who comment on the regular and give feedback on the email.

“That’s why I give you my ups, my downs, my pain, my passion, my pleasure/
My good and bad times n*gga my whatever/
My hopes and dreams, blood tears and sweat/
My version of R.Kelly, this is a n*ggas threat/
My life is a open book/
N*gga I hope you took, from it whatever works for you/
I was put on this earth to move/
Mountains I think, I’m almost sure………” Jay-Z “Get My Sh!t Off” produced By Timbaland

Toys R Us Kid?




I’m wondering what’s gotten into me recently. I’ve gone completely toy/gadget crazy. In the last week I’ve purchased two vacuum cleaners (having OCD just became twice as fun), a PS3, Guitar Heros World Tour, a karaoke machine, and a new navigation for the car that talks in several languages…I like putting it on Spanish to see if I can avoid getting lost.

The PS3 was purchased so I could watch Blu-Ray dvds but that Guitar Heros set was just calling my name and now I’m hooked. Every night around 3am I get busy on them drums. So much so that I’m thinking of getting into real instruments. Never knew it was that much fun.

Even more fun than Guitar Heros is the karaoke machine. Very cheap (something like $40) but more fun than you can imagine. I got these disc sets that come with the all the words; kind of like your very own background vocalists while you get your off-key on similar to Jay-Z’s “AND I WISH I NEVER MET HER AT ALLLLLLLL”. I think when I get my money right, one of the first things I’m doing is opening up a karaoke bar. Just $10 to get in and you can sing your heart out and watch other people do the same. We’ll call it “Phelly O Key”. Good idea, no?

So yeah that’s my story and I’m sticking to it. I don’t know what kinda husband I’m gonna end up being but I know for sure I’m gonna be a good dad. My kids are gonna be like a bunch of Diggy and Russy’s…no JoJo though, I’ll kick him out.

Disclaimer: Believe it or not,actual work gets done….lots of it. This is just what I choose to do with my late late nights after I toss the harassment machine aka Blackberry.

The Super Long Happy New Year Post

“I get a lot of back lash for saying what I’m going to do. I love saying what I think because it keeps me accountable. Once I say it, I feel like I have to to do it and I love proving to everyone that I can!”-Kanye West (Page 16 of his book)

Last post of the year, gotta make it count. First and foremost I must thank each and every person who reads, comments, laughs, and shares anything they see on here. It means much to me that people take time to check what I got going on and allow me to share my work and my thoughts with them. Appreciate it.

Shout out to everyone who helped me this year. There’s no one I came across that I didn’t learn from. Every person I encountered on the street, every facebook /myspace profile I read, and every blog post that I viewed helped me in some form. Even if it’s just me saying “Phell don’t you ever do what that person just did”. I would love to shout people out individually but it’s impossible….way too many people were instrumental in my 2008 run.

Easily the happiest of my 21 years on this earth. Had the pleasure of working with people I grew up idolizing. That’s not even supposed to happen. Only in the movies. I was able to touch people with words both recorded and written. Helped a few folks advance their careers. Introduced people around me to a whole new way of thinking and living. Came across so many smart people that passed on knowledge that the worlds biggest library couldn’t provide.

2008 was everything 2007 wasn’t. 07′ was where I cut off everyone to get my life on track without any distractions. Very selfish but necessary. I had to go through 07′ to get to 08′ so I ain’t mad.

2008 was the year I tried to reconcile a few of the relationships I lost the previous year. I believe people who really care for each other can go years without speaking and pick up right where they left off like it was nothing. If you don’t speak to someone for a few months then next time you speak to them it seems funny,that relationship was never worth much in my opinion. Anyways, 2008 I made a pact not to cut anyone off (just an extremist way of compensating for the mass cut offs of 2007). It (kinda) worked except mad people took advantage. No matter what people did, I let it ride till my patience finally ran out around September and I reverted back to my old low patience self. It’s really not low patience. You shouldn’t have to tolerate other peoples BS in your life unless it’s a relationship you really really value. And even then there should be a “let’s fix the BS” time frame.

The following was my approach towards life in 2008 written in WordsFrom style (Might get posted there too, I sent it in).

In 2008 I Ran

Running=Pursuing goals in life. The Finish Line=Accomplishing those goals in a timely fashion and maintaining happiness while doing so.

I put my head down and I run forward with velocity. My head is down so I don’t see any potential obstacles or hazards that might discourage me from running. I run with velocity as opposed to speed because any fool can run fast as hell in the wrong direction;velocity however is knowing your direction and then applying speed to it. I take note of everything I pass along the way and try to apply it to my run. The temptation occurs to look ahead but I take great pleasure in my current progress.

Occasionally I’ll slow down but never completely stop. I slow down to make sure I’m still comfortable with the direction I’m going in. If someone behind wants to run with me they are more than welcome. Running partners can make the journey easier but they are not a necessity. To join, you have to offer something positive to the run and cannot show any signs of weakness or doubt. If you don’t 100% believe in something, don’t do it. Plain and simple.

If it’s revealed that you’re a person looking for a free ride or that you are scared or incapable of running,I’ll simply leave you behind without explanation. Same will be done if you are a person that easily gets jealous of the velocity and confidence that one runs with. There’s no magic potion or secret shoe. It’s simply the constant practice of acquiring knowledge,hard/smart work, and blind faith.

If you lack those and envy me for having them, I’ll leave you behind. No hard feelings. No diss songs or harsh text messages need to be exchanged. In the event you do disrespect me for my decision, I’ll run even harder. Your unkind sentiments will be dealt with appropriately after the run. I also won’t tolerate if you come off as a person willing to cut corners or cheat in the run. Sorry but no golf carts or rocket boosters allowed. We want to get to the finish line but not that bad.

Shout out to all my runners. See you at the track in 2009.

Sidenote:Props again to Will Smith for the motivation to run. Props to Sickamore on the Velocity vs Speed speech way back in the early days of The Famous Firm. That always stuck with me for some reason. Props to everyone that did decide to run with me this year and those who will be running with me in 2009. Also props to those who don’t run with me but do get their run on. “Real Recognize real and ya’ll looking familiar.”

2009 Goals:
I started working on my new year goals in November. One of them I’ve already accomplished. It was more so a physical benchmark I was trying to reach. Those who knew me back in the “big boned” days know the difference.
Sidenote: Jacks I’m gonna really need you to burn those super fat pics. I’m not embarrassed that I used to be a chubby kid but those pics are just overboard.


I always have so much on my mind but I’m going to try and channel it more into a microphone and less on blogs. I feel like I say too much on here. That’s until I find Mrs.Phella. Then I’ll just tell her all my thoughts while we count bags and bags of illegal cash (sort of a joke).

Speaking of microphones. Got a mega-super duper-blow your socks off-wish I could say it right now type of announcement about my music coming in the end of January.

Speaking of January. I’m excited to get to work on the N.E.P.H.E.W project. Add one more Chicago MC to your list please. Big ups to his manager Rico as well.

I am extremely excited about the Firm and all we will be doing. 2009 is on track to be a breakout year for the company the way I see it.

In 2007 my focus was strictly about money and it was successful. In 2008 my focus was strictly about happiness and it was successful. In 2009 I’m hoping to achieve both simultaneously. I’m not even sure it’s possible but it should be a fun ride.

Also gotta get back to playing basketball again. If we do the summer team this year,I just might play.

Try to check on people more. Sick and tired of being yelled at for never calling,texting, or online messaging. I honestly care, just don’t like bothering people.

I WISH A HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR WITH MUCH LOVE AND SUCCESS TO EVERYONE OUT THERE .

Oh and remember. You are you and I AM PHELLA….hahaaaaaa gotta love corny phrases at the end of movies…I’m gone

This Is A Tale Of Lost Innocence

I really really really didn’t want to blog this. Part of my new years goal is to not depict myself as some “save the world” a$$ n*gga. I think post-Obama we have too many of those and I don’t wanna be part of the new “cool”. Plus I’ve been about change since birth and I’ll continue to be. I just won’t be as vocal about it anymore till the trend dies down. But I gotta get this last one in.

Sidenote:Merry Christmas to everyone out there by the way, hope it was great.

Now on to the story of innocence. I was at a store just buying some random items and I saw all these cool toys for kids. Immediately these two kids popped in my mind. A little girl and her brother who used to be my neighbors. Let’s just say their family situation isn’t the best and they probably weren’t going to get any Christmas gifts. So I bought the toys that I thought they would like and had my mom call their mom to find their new residence. I showed up unannounced and gave them the gifts and what happened next is the main point I’m trying to get across.

Those kids were sooooooooooooo happy you would think I gave them everything in the world. They smiled and jumped and thanked me over and over. Their mom was so emotional because she was just in the process of explaining to them why they wouldn’t get presents this year due to her not working for the past 6 months. When I say they were happy, I mean HAPPY. So happy that I started playing the toys with them. That 20 mins I spent there made my whole entire year.

I say all that to say that innocence children have is the best thing I think in the world and I want to regain as much of that as possible. The toys didn’t cost a million dollars but that didn’t matter to them. I left their house with the thought in mind that I ABSOLUTELY must become wealthy so I can help provide that kind of joy to more than two children. I’ve always been about getting money so I can better peoples lives but this completely sealed the deal.

Phellito’s Way:The Super Positive Post

Got up this morning and every e-mail, text msg, facebook status and Blackberry Messenger name I saw was depressing. www.iamphella.com won’t contribute to all that negative energy….”that ain’t the happiness we like pursuing.” Decided to post random positive things. Hope it works.

This pic of Christ The Redeemer in Brazil is one of the illest pics EVER. I’m definitely going over there next year.

Mrs.Carter decided to shoot a video for my favorite joint off her album. I haven’t watched yet but I’m sure it’s ill. Everything she does is ill. “She can see my Halo, but you say I’m a-hole/then wonder why on all those nights I never came home”-Phella (Unreleased Song)

Two of the best to do it chopping it up at the barber shop. Loso and Joey.

I randomly got my role in The Famous Firm transcended yesterday. That’s great news, but I won’t go into detail until next year. I’ve more than learned my lesson about premature announcements.

Also today is the Famous Firm head honcho’s bday. Sickamore turns 24. Feel free to stop by here or here to wish well.

Lastly Christina of FF was featured in this Nike Ad. Looks very cool. The person in purple shoes by the way.

Aight I’m outta here. I’m really not supposed to be blogging right now but I made this exception to spread some good news. Hope it worked.

Quote Of The Day..Maybe Of The Week Pt 2

“I have not failed….I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work.”-Thomas Edison