It’s good to write and write honest. If this blog does nothing else, it allows me to reference back to turning points in my life; see where things went right and where things went wrong. Just doing some research I found this post from last June. It was when my car got broken into outside of my families apartment. A few days later, another break in. Several other things happened that month that made it seem like the world as I knew it was coming to an end. A few months later, my family left that apartment and moved into a house in a much safer place and all of that were distant memories.
When you pick up and move 200 miles away from every bit of support you’ve ever had in your life, you lose a lot. That’s anybody — from Bill Gates to Joe Schmoe who just moved from Idaho to Kentucky to sell light bulbs. Little money that used to help take care of this and that suddenly isn’t there. Little meals that used to get cooked for you aren’t there. Bills increase drastically. The mental and physical demands of trying to establish yourself in your new surrounding take their toll on you.
Let me break out my Choppy Writing Style for this next paragraph to give you a glimpse at my month. CWS, which I invented and want 1000% everytime it’s used, is simply listing words and phrases to allow the reader to draw their own conclusion. It saves time, space, and energy.
Girl. Gone. Father. Coma. Almost. Dead. Mother. Worried. Me. Calm. Pulled Over. Several Times. License. Suspended. Tags. Suspended. Insurance. Suspended. Fines. Heavy. Life Savings. Withdrawn. Rent. Late. Bills. Plenty. Funds. Insufficient. Mother. Worried. Girl. Still Gone. Father. Alive Again. Me. Too Busy Surviving. Can’t Call. Weather. Very Hot. Me. Still Smiling. Working Out. Three Times A Day. Eating. Not At All. Sleeping. Few Hours. Trying To Make It. In America. Business. Not Great. “I’m doing great”. Lying. Quit? Never. Go Harder. Went Harder. Got Dizzy. Got Dizzier. Quit? Never. Go Harder. Went Harder. Got Dizzier. Got Headaches. Got Summoned To Come Home. Went Home.
I watched The Karate Kid yesterday with my little brother and it was a great film. It had so many lessons in it and most of them are things that I’ve thought of or written about recently. One of the biggest things I gained from it was when Mr. Han said to Dre, “life will knock us down, but we can choose whether or not to get back up.” Furthermore, the movie showed that getting back up usually isn’t done alone, not even for the strongest fighter.
Dre Parker had to retreat back to Mr. Han and whatever that girls name was. Muhammad Ali had Angelo Dundee. Rocky had Mickey and Adrian as his support system. We all need to be reminded how great we are, who and what we’re fighting for, then get back up. For me, it’s been my true friends and family. They’ve really been in my corner and gotten me back and ready to fight again.
I was almost reluctant to write this because I didn’t want it to come off as complaining, self-pity, or anything like that. It’s none of the above. I just know that we’re all human and we all go through it — for me it just happens to be every June. Someone, somewhere, at some time, will read this and hopefully they’ll be reminded that they need to get back up and fight.
Damn son…June hates you lol
It ain’t got but sh!t on you tho lol
It seems like June has been one hell of a month for the both of us – I’ve really been hit from all angles, and it feels like I’ve lost it. But anywho…your post reminded me to hang in there! Thank you
Definitely hang in there Crystal. It’s tough when you’re in a dark tunnel to see the light at the end but that’s why we keep walking. There’s always light at the end.