It truly is one. Been up and down recently with a lot of things but I think I’m back to “Where I Wanna Be” (No Donell Jones).

Thanks to everyone who helped out, especially Keyshia Cole. That girl’s a rider. If she can put up with that family of hers and still remain positive then we all can put up with anything. Plus she is Beautiful (No Snoop ft. Pharell)

I have a friend who sends me quotes periodically and she was right on time with this one. Almost like she knew what was going on in my mind, here it is:“The thing that makes you exceptional, if you are at all, is inevitably that which makes you lonely. – Lorraine Hansberry”…I Wanna Thank You (No Lil Bow Wow)

So part of what has been bothering me, probably the biggest thing;music. My music in particular. I’ve said before that no matter what I accomplish in this world my music means the most to me. My SITC project, although it got shown love was an epic disaster in my opinion. First off, I had to change a lot of the plans I had for it when I had a falling out with the primary producer on it. That stalled a lot of the momentum I had going and altered a lot of the plans, not to mention wasted money…that’s my bad though for not having the foresight to see that coming.

In addition, I need to quit being so hardheaded. When it comes to my creativity I rarely ever compromise, which is cool if you’re selling music to yourself. But if you want the general public to recognize you then compromise you must. My whole thing is I want to raise the status quo and create change. So I experiment with new sounds and new deliveries and to a person that’s thinking on that level, it connects. To the average person who just wants to hear music, it misses them completely. Once again, my bad.

Will Smith is one of the most intelligent people walking our planet in my opinion. He has the same desire to make change and raise the status quo. He made movies like Men In Black, I Robot, Independence Day, even did Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air..Those weren’t the deepest projects ever but they helped him capture millions of fans worldwide that grew with him. Imagine if he would have started out with Pursuit Of Happyness;he wouldn’t have the following he does today. Imagine if Jay-Z started off with Kingdom Come (actually Reasonable Doubt even went over heads. He had to do dumb it down on Vol.1, 2 and 3 to connect). Imagine if Kanye started off with 808s and Heartbreak; he has a following and he’s being questioned for experimenting. So where does a rookie like me go off saying “ya’ll are gonna listen to what I wanna do and love it…forget the fact that you have a billion other choices”. I did my research and if you go to my imeem, the songs that recieve plays in the thousands are just freestyles. Whenever I get all conceptual it misses the masses and that’s who I want. I appreciate the people who like my deeper stuff but promoting change to people who have already changed is useless. You need to be able to connect with those who are yet to think above the status quo.

My 3 favorite rappers, Pusha T, Joe Budden and AZ have had “decent” careers because they refused to cater to the audience. They stayed stubborn and made what they wanted to make and the public responded by not supporting. When they have met the public halfway, it led to huge success. Pump It Up=Good lyrics+Super Production+Simple Hook. Grindin=Good lyrics+Super Production+Simple Hook. Otherwise they get labeled as “the depressed rapper” or “the cocaine rapper”. Now I’m not advocating dumbing ALL THE WAY DOWN. Never that. The public doesn’t want dumb, they just want simple. They want the medicine in the candy and there’s nothing wrong with that. Once you can give the people what they want without compromising yourself, you got it. That’s Lil Wayne’s success as well as 50′s before he got lazy. So from now on your boy Phell is giving them that Ignorant Sh*t they love. (No Jay-Z)

Other than that, I’ve been working out ten times harder than ever recently. Don’t even know why but it’s been great. I’m at record highs in everything;bench press, push ups, sit ups, running, and everything else. I feel like a boxer training for a fight..except no fight that I know of. (No Rocky)

Stumbled on to some new music and an interview from my old buddy Articulate. He got a lot going on right now so make sure you check him out. One of the hardest working dudes in this here game. Keep On Pushing (No Curtis Mayfield)

Other than that, life is great. Slim’s cd is ill. Beyonce’s cd is flaaaaaaames. Hov seems to be getting in a zone again.

Oh and before I forget, I got my first A&R credit which you can see below. I was ecstatic. Momma I Made It (No Jay-Z)